I didn't see Mr. Lawyer last night, I didn't even make it to the wine bar.
All dressed up I enjoyed good food and good company at the hibachi dinner. We had 8 pitchers of sake, one for each person, before we headed out to drink downtown. (There goes the not drinking streak.) Happy to report I actually got home just mildly buzzed. I was too busy being enthralled.
Is it possible to completely change your taste in men after 26 years? Is it possible that someone completely unexpected could meet all the criterias you've ever created from all the break ups you've ever had to go through? Is it possible something so impossible could just miraculously appear, without any effort?
I met Mr. Unexpected and he was hot by everyone else's standards but mine. Okay, I thought he was hot too, when I first saw him, but I tried to deny it. He's not the type I usually go for. And once I tell my friends the one criteria he actually missed, I don't even know the kind of reaction I will get. Maybe someone will even get me a congratulatory cake =D. But our eyes met, and cheesy I knew he'd be someone interesting. Of course, since he wasn't my type I had a instant wall, and I gave my snotty remarks, and responses. To my surprise he matched them all, and then some. Our conversation went in range of sushi, Voltron, Snorkles, foreign lands, work, school, family traditions, classic vs trendy, and everything else in the middle. I spent most of the rest of the night with him, and I can honestly say the new outfit was not wasted at all. So we had chemistry, but really chemistry fades, so let's see how far this goes.
So far, I know...
...he's mature enough to know when to start drinking water
...he appreciates my kind of sarcasm
...he has several degrees, a master, and a very stable job where his got a title and seniority aka he's responsible and smart
...he has similar values and finds ways around them in a similar fashion
...he's my kind of funny, my kind of geeky, and my kind of snobby, which is everything tongue in cheek
...he's hot
...he thinks I'm hot
Last night is the kind of night that makes you start appreciating all of Paolo Nutini's songs. Yeah, I have his CD. It was my break-up-make-me-cry-so-I-can-get-over-it-faster album. And now, it's like my life-is-so-awesome-I-want-to-karaoke-love-songs album.
Today, I continued my progressive organization of my room and I ran across my first ever birthday card from Ray, which used to always make me cry. Only because I remembered how he got it and filled it out the day of my birthday, and how he always did every "special" occasion after that on the day off, all forced-like, and non-sentimental. Today when I ran across it, I filed it away and realized I didn't feel all teary anymore, it's just a bad part of my past that I can cover up with all the good times ahead.
I'm starting to stop punishing myself that I couldn't make him love me. Actually, I'm proud I can finally admit that he never loved me. I knew it the whole time, but I didn't want to tell anyone I knew. But I do, and it's okay.
And I'm not saying I'm starting to move one because I'm banking on Mr. Unexpected, or Mr. Lawyer, or anyone. Just that now I can see that if someone is meant to fall in love with me, it shouldn't be all forced-like, it should be in a sentimental fashion, the way I always thought it should be.
Ah, enough. I'm getting off the soap box. Let's have a sing along instead.
Who else? Paolo Nutini with two fratastic songs.
Alloway Grove
Coming home again To see a girl thats prettier than a diamond shining in the sun Oh what fun! I wonder if she's been naked in her room since I've been gone I wonder if she's said to them as she said to me before
However much you use me baby, come on use me more However much you use me baby, come on use me more
Getting off the train To see a girl thats sweeter than an apple picked from Adam's tree Oh glory be! And I wonder if she's been pressed against an unfamiliar wall And said to all those men as she has said to me before
However much you want me, I swear I'll make you want me more However much you want me, I swear I'll make you want me more and more and more and more
La-la-la, la la la la
Arriving at the door Just to be told that the girl I'm missing has been in London for a while No more northern skies for her They say she's left a letter up the stair for everyone It's pinned against her bedroom door for all the world to see and she says
However much I love you, you will always love me more However much I love you, you will always love me more And I guess it's true However much she loves me I will always love her more
La-la-la la la la la
I'll love you more and more, I'll love you more I'll love you more and more, I'll love you more I'll love you more and more, I'll love you more I'll love you more and more, I'll love you more and more and more....
New Shoes
Woke up cold one Tuesday, I'm looking tired and feeling quite sick, I felt like there was something missing in my day to day life, So I quickly opened the wardrobe, Pulled out some jeans and a T-Shirt that seemed clean, Topped it off with a pair of old shoes, That were ripped around the seams, And I thought these shoes just don't suit me.
Hey, I put some new shoes on, And suddenly everything is right, I said, hey, I put some new shoes on and everybody's smiling, It so inviting, Oh, short on money, but long on time, Slowly strolling in the sweet sunshine, And I'm running late, And I dont need an excuse, 'Cause I'm wearing my brand new shoes.
Woke up late one Thursday, And I'm seeing stars as I'm rubbing my eyes, And I felt like there were two days missing, As I focused on the time, And I made my way to the kitchen, But I had to stop from the shock of what I found, A room full of all my friends all dancing round and round, And I thought hello new shoes, bye bye blues.
Hey, I put some new shoes on, And suddenly everything is right, I said, hey, I put some new shoes on and everybody's smiling, It so inviting, Oh, short on money, but long on time, Slowly strolling in the sweet sunshine, And I'm running late, And I dont need an excuse, 'Cause I'm wearing my brand new shoes.
Take me wandering through these streets, Where bright lights and angels meet, Stone to stone they take me on, I'm walking to the break of dawn.
Take me wandering through these streets, Where bright lights and angels meet, Stone to stone they take me on, I'm walking to the break of dawn.
Hey, I put some new shoes on, And suddenly everything is right, I said, hey, I put some new shoes on and everybody's smiling, It so inviting, Oh, short on money, but long on time, Slowly strolling in the sweet sunshine, And I'm running late, And I dont need an excuse, 'Cause I'm wearing my brand new shoes.
Hey, I put some new shoes on, And suddenly everything is right, I said, hey, I put some new shoes on and everybody's smiling, It so inviting, Oh, short on money, but long on time, Slowly strolling in the sweet sunshine, And I'm running late, And I dont need an excuse, 'Cause I'm wearing my brand new shoes.
Now. . .THAT is the MULTITASKERGIRL I know!!
Little bitty from McBride:
CHORUS
Oh watch me go
I'm a happy girl
Everybody knows
That the sweetest thing you'll ever see
In the whole wide world
Is a happy girl